Business goals aside, there is one personal objective that I plan to improve upon this year, and that is the art of separation.
For as long as I can remember, I have obsessed over things.
The word “obsession” is a word that I have a strange relationship with. When I was young, my mother told me that my obsessive nature was “my greatest gift and my greatest curse.”
I can’t help it. I love it. It makes me happy.
Happiness to me that feeling you get when you’ve been up for 30 hours and you’re exhausted but also manic and you feel like you can keep going for days.
Frankly, I have no idea how people wake up in the morning and just relax and live in the moment without having to intentionally remind themselves to do so.
As soon as I wake up in the morning, I’m ready to go. There’s so much to do, so much to improve on, so much to experience and conquer.
It’s not that I’m a workaholic, or even that I’m greedy. It’s that the rush I feel from working on things that excite me is what makes life worth living.
Why wouldn’t I want to do the things that make me feel alive?
We all know the answer. We have all dealt with this in some capacity or another. The problem is …
MORE! MORE! MORE!
More Oxy. More coke. More money. More adrenaline. More fun. More friends. More followers. More excitement. More LIFE!!!!
No one is impervious to the trap of more, some of us are more susceptible than others.
The truth is, I’m pretty damn content with my life. I feel like I know myself. I feel great about my work and I have absolutely no plans to slow down. I have so much I am grateful for.
I have the best job in the entire world. I have the best family I could ever ask for. I have the coolest wife on the planet and I have a small group of friends that know me and understand me in a way that only we can comprehend.
I’ve spent the last 10 years learning how to manage the parts of me that want to crash and burn. I’m not a monster like I used to be and I’m not looking to flip my life upside down. I’m simply trying to recognize that taking some time and space to myself is a healthy exercise of restraint.
More space for my mind. More space for my spirit. More space for my relationships and more space for my thoughts to roam and relax.
2021 is going to be great. I’m excited to continue my journey.